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MTB worls Votovagas 06

2006-08-31T17:22:00.000+12:00

Go the kiwi Junior Mens DH team

2 NZ flags fly high

1st Cameron Cole
2nd Sam Belkinsop

the year thus far

2006-08-10T08:56:00.000+12:00

This year has been another steep learning curve for me, it's been tough
really tough. But I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that GOD is with me, at
my side.

coming back to New Zealand and gettin back into stuent life was really hard,
although I worked hard I failed my first assesment this was the begining of
my learning

'fear not for I am with you' says the Lord

What a wake up call! After that I pursued what God had set me in Dunedin for
to be great and do amazingly in my course my marks slowley improved and
things got easier.

Then as everything was settling and going really well I had a nasty accident
in nasby, the same day the droppin in Nasby blog photo was taken. Even
though I was able to ride out, drive from central Otago to Dunedin (with
mates a 4hr drive), hobble round for the next two days and complete a
ridding clinic the next day, I had serious injuries to my leg.

I simply thought I had bruised my leg, knee and back but un-beknown to me a
clot 12cm/5" had developed in one of the veins in my lower left leg. On
monday I had some pain but no real clinical signs of a DVT, by wednesday I
could not walk couldn't stand could not sit I was in agony, but God was with
me. Friends took me to the emergancy department who looked at my leg
decided it was soft tissue damage and a possible fracture they sent me home
to rest on pain killers.

Two days later an ambulance trip to hospital was necessary. After much
discussion and to rule out a complete tear in my muscle they performed a
venous ultrasound scan. To my horror they found the clot, I was then
addmitted to the surgical ward and started treatment thinning my blood to
levels that are abnormal to allow the blood clot to disolve.

after a couple of weeks I woke up in the middle of the night and had massive
pain in my chest, which had also happened in hospital before this, I
couldn't breathe well and a was rushed back to the hospital, straight onto
heart monitors and re-admitted I had had the clot dislodge and part of it
had wedged in my lungs. My resting heart rate doubled I was pretty unwell
and they tought I was on my way to the ICU, but with God hanging on and this
year catch phase ringing in my ears "rear not I am with you" we fought back.
Literally by Gods hand and grace alone my life was spared, I stayed out of
the ICU and waspalced on a cardio ward and makeing a full recovery slowely.

now it's 4months on from the accident and I still remember that day, I have
come so far, God himself has led me from a state of total dispair into a
state of healing. This is a time fro healing a time to reflect, now as I
have progressed from the posibility of death to a wheelchair onto crutches
and now walking. I cant go far but I can go and each day it gets better,
there are the bad days but the Good outways the bad ay.

So yeah thats me people I am progressin and gettin there, thanks to those
who have prayed for me over the last 4 months you all have been my srength
and pertitioned my case the the author and perfector of my faith you have
tugged on the robes of my God and you have played a massive part in my
remarkable recovery
God Bless you all
K

the big freeze

2006-06-04T21:57:00.000+12:00

about an hour ago....

now it up past my door the first snow fall
and hailstorms of a long cold winter are here

Still at the house still in the chair but gettin
there up walking more now...

Bless u all,
through all I endure with the grace of God alone
K

mayhem

2006-05-20T22:49:00.000+12:00

well thought this was in need of a wee update

life is good but Im currently housebound.....

my wee aciddent at nasby turned into a bit of a major and end up in hospital for 4 days with a DVT (blod clot) in my left leg below the knee.... not only that but also a fracture maybe still of the tibal plateau (top bit of bone below the knee).... also waiting to see what the orthopeadics say about my knee it does not lock, they think I have torn ligaments and damaged the minscus also have fluid on the knee and damaged ligaments in right hand.....

but God is good his grace and love are amazing and in him through him
I will overcome these hurdels and continue on the journey he has set before me...

anyways miss u all blessings
K

dropin in nasby style

2006-05-08T21:36:00.000+12:00

hey all
had a wild riding weekend, nasby was amazin canned myself harder than I ever have before, might have a hairline fracture in my leg (ouchies) so on the good old sticks again non-weight bearin till they figure it out they decided today its broke or they think it is the xray not clear will have to have more next week.... but they keeping me outta a cast for now

all good though take crae will update as I know more keep going good miss u all
K

registry

2006-05-01T21:34:00.000+12:00

shes a flooded

2006-05-01T21:31:00.000+12:00

Flying through life on auto pilot

2006-04-29T17:10:00.000+12:00

We often forget in this rushed day and age to sit back and examine the state of ones life, to count the impact of the choices and decisions we make and refelct upon our own physical and mental state

Today is one such time when once again through stupidity or lack of insight I have pushed myself to far, having been crusing on auto-piolt I was unawaer that bugs had built up on the windsheild of life, I hadn't needed to navigate so simply had not noticed.

now Im charged with the painful activity of wiping those bugs away one at a time painfully as it may be I have to turn off the auto pilot and deal to the issues of life. I alone am accountable for my actions it's the fault of none other than myself that I find myself at this point again

so one by one the're being delt with it may take time and it's a journey, I have learnt tht the quick fix is mearly aa bandaidand that I must fully submit the issues if I am to move forward in God. So on a quiet saturday afternoon I sit once again, deep in painful reflection.....

Through Gods grace alone this journey I walk and through his gentle guidence, love for me and once again grace I will endure this journey I will complete

2nd year OT HUI Otakou Marae -reflections

2006-04-28T18:41:00.000+12:00

I sit here trying to articulate the things that are going on inside me
having spent the last 3 days and two nights on Otakou Marae
here on dunedins penisula.

What a privillage to have been taken into " the spare bedroom"
of the local Hapu (tribe). Having spent our three days learning about
myself and the way I view the world through workshops in harekeke (flax)
and the Treaty of Waitangi, I have the opertunity to reflect upon oneself.

When I look at how much I am aready acutly aware of learning I am amazed.
I have been blessed with such an opertunity to learn about myself, who I am
and where I am going. I was challenged about how I viewed the treaty as a pakeha and had the chance to challenge the opnion of people from the local hapu regarding this, to be given this opertunity is amazing having people who have such wisdom and knowledge open themselves to a students critique is unique it's not the norm and is such a privillage.

Through working with the lovely men and women at the marae
in the art of harekeke, I learnt to create objects of beauty,
The flax is such a precious resource for which I learnt to be more
respectful and thankful. The workshops (Harekeke and Treaty) we not
seperate entities on their own but tighty knitted together, I am still in my own
mind exploring this connection and interweaving.

So if I had to pick one thing that challenged me at Hui it would be that being myself and being secure in that knowledge, proud of who I am and where I come from, it will hold me in fine stead for practise and indeed life.

Kia Kaha

delving into Te reo Maori

2006-04-05T20:23:00.000+12:00

Being spured by the fact that I have to conduct a mihimihi (speech on where I come from) on our course hui (gathering on a marae/ maori meeting house), recently I have been looking into Maori language and it's usage.

Waiho i te toipoto kaua i te toiroa stood out to blog
as it's about connections and keeping in contact with people
(or so I gather from the book I'm reading)

So thought it might be quite cool to blog a mihimihi at some point in the near future its gettin there not quite finished.....

The Hui will be great (and there will be photo's)
It's an opertunity to meet here with the local iwi (people) and hear there views, express our own and come to grasps with the Treaty of Waitangi, its principals and impementation which will govern our practise (wehn we graduate) in New Zealand.

So that where I am up now back to memerising the mihimihi

bless you all
K

Human Condition

2006-03-31T17:16:00.000+12:00

Conflict with God is endemic to the human condition

Was reading today and this caught my eye,

Started thinking about Conflict and what conflict really is;

conflict

Etymology: Middle English, from Latin conflictus act of striking together, from confligere to strike together, from com- + fligere to strike -- more at PROFLIGATE

1 : FIGHT, BATTLE, WAR

2 a : competitive or opposing action of incompatibles : antagonistic state or action (as of divergent ideas, interests, or persons) b : mental struggle resulting from incompatible or opposing needs, drives, wishes, or external or internal demands

3 : the opposition of persons or forces that gives rise to the dramatic action in a drama or fiction
synonym see DISCORD

I started to realise that as humans we do have a condition called conflict in our everday lives....

what struck me about websters meaning of conflict is in red, this complety describes how we humans clash with God, our inner mental desires and the demands of life afford to us things which are in opposition to the will, purpose and drivge of God in our lives producing the agaonising human contion of conflict with God.....

This is simulary like the journey Jonah has, his internal desire and needs and drives don't match up with God given ones and as he runs, is swallowed by the whale and then looses his shady leaf covering in the Hot sun. His internal desires clash with and war against the external desires God has given him

it got me thinking

Standing strong

2006-03-30T19:14:00.000+12:00

Hey all

Well currently at home on leave from course recouperating after having had surgery to remove a couple of offending tonsils.....

Op went well was recovering well but then alas nasty buggies hit n bingo an infection we have. Been quite sick for a couple of days shaking vomiting fever rether like having malaria really ecept not hearing voices (praise the Lord)

But doing good God is an awesome God and this is an amazing time to chill with God and dwell in him....

In him my weakness is made strong

and hey even though I have a big 20% test on mon (which I have to pass or face the prospect of having to come back in Jan 07 to sit exams) . God is so much bigger these challeges are achance to stand in my faith and be a witness for the power mercy and grace of God....

anywyas I need to lay down again silly medication Im on
take care email me I am so bored
miss u all

Kia Kaha God Bless
K

Thoughts and challenges

2006-03-07T17:05:00.000+13:00

Embracing the challenge

Run the race!
Pursue Excellence
Strive towards the goal...

Thought, feelings, the wonderings and ponderings.
Lately I've been thinking (i Know some of u are laughing)
What does it mean to run the race,
to embrace the challenge to pursue excellence
and strive towards the goal....

I guess Ive come to this conclusion
To run the race menas to take a journey,
to be heading somewhere.
To embrace the challenge means
no matter what I keep going.
Pursuit of excellance, I Give the best
and finally Striving for a goal means
there is an end to the journey a reason for going.

This year I want run the race,
Take a journey with God
Embrace the obstacles and challenges
I want to hang onto my heavenly father
when the going gets though
Giving the best of everything I have and am to him
And finally I want to finish this year changed I want to be different.....

Even though I am in this world I do not want to be of this world I pray that my heard, mind and body will resist the urge to comform. That despite the things that go with being a student here in Dunners I will stand out, niot for myself but that God himself may be given the glory

Bless ya all

On my knees again

2006-02-28T22:39:00.000+13:00

I find myself,
on my knees again.
By the grace of God realising
the decisions I have made,
the path I have chosen,
Is not the lighten way.

Lord I seek you
as tears roll down my checks
my God the one true thing
consume me with
your ever forgiving love again.
Embrace my heart and draw me near.

I question Lord my own stupid
humanness, that again this path I walk..
Why Lord is my mind so stupid?
letting my hearts rule gain this strife again.
Where is the end, why do I struggle?
Im on my kness in this place again

Update 06

2006-01-20T23:11:00.000+13:00

UPDATE 06

View over Auckland from One tree hill

Hey all,

Sitting today and thought about updating the blog and keeping it updated this year so here goes

Well Im back from all my travels, having been to Africa, the UK and Europe this last year I have now headed back to the land I call home Aotearoa New Zealand….

Having learnt so much this last year, theres so much on my heart and I plan to blog (over the next week or so) some of the feelings and thoughts captivating my heart at the moment.

So wanted to say Hi to all take care great to be back but miss London and all my friends at Hillsong….

Kia Kaha

YAK

Grace amazin Grace

2005-10-20T10:18:00.000+13:00

After having a hard time recently at work decided to simply take time and be still before God

amazin how Gods grace meets us where we are ay
the gentle wisper of his voice satisfies all my needs.... was thinkin of a song the other day (well it popped into my head) it says

"if i stand let me stand on the promise that you will pull me through, and if I can't let me fall on the grace that first brought me to you"

which led to another hillsong song (which i think is going to be released on the new CD out of London soon)

"till I see you face to face and grace amazing takes me home, I'll trust in you..."

my life now is an amazin interwoven masterpiece of God's grace inter-twined with my trust and belief in a purpose for being in london and am simply falling on Gods grace to pull me through the tough times while trusting his intensions plans and purposes..

Gods amazing grace and provion for my life have allowed me this year to grow so much and to truely learn some of the hardest greatest lessons which have shapped the person I am becoming in God...

anyways I have a bit more to say that I wrote the other day but that is on my laptop which is at the house so will hopefully post that tomorrow

Paris

2005-09-28T08:39:00.000+12:00

A taster of paris more to come and some ramblings

2005-09-28T08:36:00.000+12:00

Go forth and prosper

19/9/05

Was reflecting on the things God has been teaching me this year and came back to thinking about prosperity.

Much of my reading and study recently has been around prosperity and how I can relate what is biblical to my life.

Looking back over my life I am amazed at how Gods hand of prosperity has been on my life. I look at my beginnings and the journey of my life so far with all it’s twists and turns the obstacles that have been overcome and I am simply in awe of how God, Abba Father, my creator and Daddy has worked all things out for good and in doing so has caused my life to flourish and prosper beyond what not so long ago I would have dared not to dream.

This started me thinking about why I have the right to prosper and what has given me this right. All roads of enquiry lead back to the cross of Calvary. The place where my saviour the king of kings and Lord of Lords Jesus Christ paid the ultimate price and made the greatest sacrifice in dying to set me free from the bondage of my sin. As a blood bought child of God and a born again believer and follower of Jesus Christ I have the right to prosper, this is something that was purchased on the cross on my behalf it is a God given right to those who choose to follow him whole heartedly.

So what is prosperity? I started thinking about what defines prosperity…..

In terms of the world prosperity would be defined in terms of material wealth, health and possessions but, I sought a deeper meaning a true understanding of what it is to prosper in God and to live in his prosperity.

Taking a walk through scripture and spending time meditating this is God’s presence highlighted to me that prosperity in a biblical or Christian sense is about far more than our bank balance, house, the things we materially posses and our physical health. Christian Prosperity is about doing life and doing it well. Its about our heart and motives more than the material stuff. I believe prosperity for the Christian is this, seeking God and his direction and will and then taking that and making a conscious decision to do the very best with everything God has given us that which he has placed within our individual hand.

Exploring this a bit deeper its saying that prosperity for each person means different things and can not simply be measured by the same yard stick for all. Its passionately pursuing the purpose, destiny or call on our lives and living a life which is honouring to God. But as I keep saying its about a choice, we have to chose to live in the prosperity that has been purchased on our behalf it wont simply happen we have to chose to be overcommers and to believe the word of God over our own circumstances and situations

For me this has been a journey of discovery its been about changing my mindset when challenges come my way and taking them head on rather than letting them take me. A couple of examples are my health I have made a conscious decision not to be sick but to believe what the bible says about sickness and declare that it is under my feet.. for those who know me well this may come as a shock but apart from a few sniffles here and there I have not been unwell and had anytime off at all since I arrived in the UK in April. Another example was with work I was out of work in London and was staring to think about coming home but made a conscious decision to speak the word of God out and declare that God knows the plans he has for my life and that they are to prosper me and to give future and hope not despair which I was slipping towards… These may seem like small changes but they have revolutionised my walk with God this year and have impacted upon my life beyond belief

So daily I challenge myself t look at what am I believing and declaring over my life today where am I at with God and pressing into prosperity because living in a place of prosperity in God is brilliant it’s an amazing feeling…

Choose today to go forth and prosper

Bless you all sorry this was ment to be short (opps) but its what God has placed on my heart to Blog this time so hey ….

The power of laughter & tears

2005-09-20T07:18:00.000+12:00

I have the amazing privillage of working as part of a family of 4 in London.

Working alongside a person who has a terminal illness has its challenges and as a part of their life I face daily chalenge in dealing with their impending death.

Today I God reminded me of the freeing power of laughter and tears.

I sat with my boss as he wept and the loss, hopelessness and injustice he feels, I too wept. Its hard to describe but its like I see the way this is affecting him as he slowley becomes more and more disabled and my heart cries out to God for his eternal future. As a man who does not know God he has eveything to fear.... but I weap not for the fact that his amazing human life will soon be leaving us, or that he is leaving behind a beautiful wife and 2 young children.
Rather that he has no hope of anyting eternal.

As I wept God reminded me that it is not my burden to bare and that he has placed me here for a reason.... Oh Lord my spirit cries use me take my life and shine your glory..... I felt so free God used my tears in a powerful way to release me frm my own expectations and repalce the yoke I had created with his yoke his wonderful and light yoke....

Later the same day I sat with their 4 year old girl as I was reading to her and tucking her in to bed for the night we played silly games and made stupid noises.... As she began to laugh i could see her spirit being lifted, the burden this child feels was transformed by the healing power of laughter... As we shared a time of laughter God reminded me that I can run into his arms and laugh like a child, he reminded me that he is my dad and that he too cares for my burdens and wills to see me happy fulfilled and prospering

works on going

2005-09-18T02:24:00.000+12:00

Hi all,

grat to have a bolg back up and running a few more things to revamp and post but these things will take time. Hope you all well miss u all heaps

God Bless
KAY

Eden Project

2005-09-18T01:54:00.000+12:00

An amazin place of tranquil beauty

Hillsong ball August 05

2005-09-18T01:50:00.000+12:00

I have Had the amazing privillage of attending the hillsong ball in august this year

with my friends and amazing brothers and sisters in christ from the south kensington conect group. For those back home and around the world just a few pics of us all in our ball kit.

JESUS the author who lights my way

2005-09-18T01:43:00.000+12:00

JESUS the author who lights
my way….

(14^th August 2005)

Had the privilege of being in Cornwall and sitting looking at amazing Gods creation, thinking about how blessed I am that God made planet earth as beautiful as it is.

Having answered Gods call and moved my life this year first on mission to Africa for 3 months and then on to the UK I have had the privilege of allowing God to teach me so much….

Not knowing what the future held as I embarked on a journey to literally the other side of the world and leaving friends ad family behind has taught me to rely totally on God alone and to hang on to the promises he has made in his word. I have had the privilege of learning to follow Jesus the author and perfector of my faith and allowing him to lead me and be my guiding light of the path of this journey.

In allowing God the freedom of leading me and giving my whole life I have been able too have the amazing experience of the father heart of God, seeing his amazing grace and abundant provision over my life.

I am challenged daily to follow the example of Christ and give my all to his kingdom doing the best I can do in his strength in all he has put in my hand. I pray that God’s strength and spirit will empower me to like more like Jesus and be transformed more each day into his likeness.

Cheers for reading this just kind of explains where I am at and gives insight into how amazing my time in London as been so far.

Reflections

2005-09-18T01:40:00.000+12:00

Reflections

(7^th August 2005)

Living at a time such as this makes me realise how short life is, as the last days approach and the time of the second coming advances I felt I should record how I feel on the day of the tragic events on he London underground and buses today.

I count myself privileged to be living in London at these times, as a Christian I have nothing to fear for Gods word says fear not for I am with you and that greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world.

I know as a Christian I have a responsibility about how I will respond, I want my response to be honouring of God and one that shines the light of Jesus as I live and work in central London.

Being in London is an amazing experience, but the events of today have brought it home that this is not a simple year out or working holiday… Rather that God has purposed for me to be here for such a time as this…..

These events rather than making me scared has made me more determined to live a life which glorifies God and shines his Glory. It has made me more passionate to see Gods victory in my life and the lives of others and to passionately pursue my destiny.

I praise God for my amazing friends both here in London and at home, a wonderful church family at Hillsong London and an amazing job. Want to take each day I have here and seize every opportunity each and every day.

NEW FOR 2005

2005-09-18T01:34:00.000+12:00

Recently my life has been undergoing many changes and there have been pressures n my time so have not blogged for ages for ages. Due to this have decided to trash the old blog and have another go, a place to post my thoughts feelings, random ramblings and some photos of my adventures over 2005 and beyond… so here it is enjoy

so here it is enjoy